Pity Party

Welcome to my Pity Party... The rules:
1- no laughter! only whining, pouting, crying, and complaining.
2- don't judge

OK Let's PARTY!

Sooo... for starters, hellooooo... where have I been for a month? busy. I started a new job at the Attorney General's Office working for the State. I enjoy it... for the most part. There are a few things I could definitely live without, but such is life.
Recently I have been really missing home... or just the mainland in general. So I know, you're probably thinking "yeah, yeah... you live in Hawaii, I don't want to hear it!" Well let me tell you a few things about living here in Hawaii that aren't what you would call paradise!

1- TRAFFIC! Oh my gosh! the other day it took me an HOUR to get home from Brint's school, which by the way is only 3 1/2 miles away from where we live! 1 HOUR! I was so annoyed! But also, for whatever reason the people that designed the road system here are plain right idiots! they all should be hanged! (Ok.. that was a joke, I don't really think they should die)

2- Aloha Spirit- What is aloha spirit exactly??? Is it, hey let me give you the shaka aka the hang loose symbol and now I can be a "bad word" and get away with whatever I want? Yup, pretty much! Grrr....

3- Now this one is a really touchy subject... I want to say the people aka Locals here, but not all of them are this way, just a lot of them... I have been really, really, really having a hard time trying to fit in here. Unfortunately, if you are not from here, you are NOT wanted here and the people make it known to you of this. No matter who it is that you're talking to, people at work, grocery store, church, heck even your Stake President's wife I have felt completely unwelcome. I had a few instances where I was told "this is not the mainland, we do things different here." Well I have something to say about that. I KNOW that this is NOT the mainland because of how A$$ backwards this state is run, because of how unfriendly the people are here, because when I walk into McDonalds and they sell a Local Moco plate with spam & eggs over rice and it's cheaper than a regular cheese burger. Because when I get into an elevator and I am the only female in that elevator with 3 other men and I am taller than all of them. When I go to work and say good morning to people and they look at me like I'm crazy and then talk crap about me behind my back and try to get me fired because "I'm different!" Believe me, I KNOW that this is not the mainland.

4- Money! I feel like Hawaii is a big black hole sucking all of our money from us. We live in tiny, old, piece of crap little added-on apartment no more than 600 sqft and pay $1350 a month! Eek! I go to the grocery store and spend $150 and it's only enough food to last a week, maybe two if I can stretch it enough and keep our portions small. The worst is that a gallon of milk cost more than a gallon of gas! What the crap is up with that?

5- Just plain and simple I miss having close friends and family around. I miss being able to drive, not fly, home! Or really just get on a freeway and drive where is speed limit is greater than 45mph!

Those are my top 5 reasons for not wanting to call this place paradise, however, there are more reason that would guarantee that this is paradise, but I don't want to talk about those!

There is one other thing that I am really struggling with recently and that is, I am especially missing Duke. He wasn't able to come back to Hawaii with us because of the temperature in Phoenix, it was too hot to fly live animals out of there. So now we have to wait until we come home for xmas to bring it back with us. Man do we miss him. Being gone from him the entire summer and now being home but he's not here with us is just killing us. By the end of this year we will have been apart from him for 7 months! *totally crying....* can't wait until the day our little family is reunited again. Until then, I'll be hanging out at my Pity Party!